Bonjour New Year~

I've been meaning to post for a while but I keep getting distracted.

Anyways, I just want to say happy new year to anyone reading this. I hope it will be better than 2012. Not that 2012 was particularly bad for me, but some things could have gone better. But I still believe everything happened for a reason, so let's hope the reason is a good one.

This night went by so quickly in my opinion. I've been extending new year's greetings since 11am to those in Asia, so it doesn't really feel so....you know....right now. Personally I'm a little sleepy- I woke up at 8am to order Kamijo's rose ring.

Speaking of Kamijo, THAT CALENDAR. THERE'S SUPPOSED TO BE A SHOWER SCENE. I NEED IT IN MY HANDS. DON'T YOU KNOW I'M BROKE, KAMIJO??
Oh! I got an email from his fanmail address concerning the 1/26 event (and even though I can't go due to me living across the freaking ocean) that email still made my day simply because of the little new year's greeting at the beginning!! I smile like an idiot every time I think of it. I want to go so badly T^T

My resolution for this new year is to actually stretch every day, because I really need to become more flexible. Hopefully I'll be able to keep this one, but we'll see how it goes.

So, happy new year, work hard, enjoy the time you have, watch new tv shows... Enjoy it!

Side note- bubzbeauty's Bohemian hairstyle is my newest favourite. It's simply perfect!! Plus my thick hair doesn't get in the way for once, yay~

Looooook~~

Here's the tutorial for the hairstyle:

Oh yes, my name is Christmas Treeee~

Merry Christmas! Although I'm still not feeling very Christmas-y... I still think that's because I haven't seen Grandma Got Runover By A Reindeer properly for the season. How sad...

I felt more Christmas-y in October than I do right now.

Anyways, this year my mom actually let us open our gifts at 12, before we went to sleep. I was deeply shocked. I swear we had a remote control helicopter convention at our house tonight, lol.

I actually didn't feel like eating much tonight (and that was my only meal for the day). It reminded me of the good old days of me hating to chew. Not that I stopped or anything.

I just finished watching Chateau de Versailles -Holy Grail- for the FIRST TIME EVER. AND OH MY GOD WAS IT WORTH THE WAIT. FAVOURITE CHRISTMAS GIFT RIGHT HERE. UGH YOU PERFECT BAND YOU.

Moving on, it is currently 4:41am, and this is about the time we're usually waking our parents up to open gifts. Christmas is so strange this year. But I still have to go by my dad later and deal with all my family, so at least some things never change...

Anyways, I hope you guys have a happy "MERRY FUCK'IN CHRISTMAS". Stay safe, eat lots, avoid your relatives, and LISTEN TO WHITENESS.

Oh! Look my nails match my Christmas pjs!!

MOTHERFUCKIN' APOCALYPSE 2K12

It is currently 12:32am here. So far all is the same. The neighbour's dogs started barking though. I await the fire and the floods ands so on. I'll check back in a few hours. So of this really is the end, I'll see you all in hell.

xoxo; Gossip Girl ;*

~*~EDIT~*~

7:19pm
Satan says hi.

Thank You, Versailles

So, the day has finally come. Versailles' final live will be in a few hours. I am not good with expressing feelings through writing (or words for that matter), and now I feel as though my entire vocabulary has left me. I honestly cannot begin to thank you guys enough.

Early 2011, I became interested in the magical world of JRock. It started out with GACKT, and it kind of escalated from there. Through a Malice Mizer video, I found this:

I watched it, and my initial reaction was basically "meh".

I knew they were talented, and the song sounded really good to me, but it just didn't capture my interest very much. (mind you I was still super obsessed with JPop so that should explain it)

Not too long after, I came across another one of their videos:


Once again I liked it, but I was very skeptical about an eight minute song.

And then, I found it.
The one video that changed everything.
The song that changed my life.
I found it.



After listening to this song it was safe to say I was in love.
This contained everything I valued in a song at the time: a nice voice, short, catchy chorus. It was prefect!

So I did some exploring and fell deeper and deeper into this web of roses, and I loved every minute of it. I became attached to them, learnt their stories, admired them whole-heartedly. I slowly became a part of their fandom, and I was welcomed with open arms.

This fandom....wow. Yes, Roses have arguments and differences and fights and butthurt people, but the fact that we all adore these men so much just makes me so happy. Happy enough to forget just how stupid some people can really be.

Versailles have shown me the true meaning of beauty; they have shown me how to see the beauty that is all around me. They have given me a new interest in roses. I was introduced the Vampire Chronicles series by Anne Rice. They have also introduced me to many other talented bands/performers. I owe them so much.

They have become my role models. They have inspired me to work harder to achieve my dream. They help me sleep at night. They make my days a lot less sucky.

I can't imagine my life without you.

Yes, I will miss you greatly, but I will not lose faith. You said this is a hiatus, and so that is what I believe. I know you will come back to us one day. I will be patient. And when you do come back, I will welcome you with open arms. I trust in your judgement when it comes to decisions like these, and I know you want what's best for your fans.

So until we meet again, just know that I miss you, I'm thinking of you always, and I love you. I can't wait to see you again. Maybe then I can finally meet you all in person to show you my gratitude? I look forward to the day.

Like I said, I'm not good with words, but
thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you,
for everything.

27 months

And now I'm freeee!

Yes, my bracers are finally off. My teeth have been straight for a while, but my dentist was trying to widen one side of my bottom jaw, but he realised his attempts made no progress over these last few months so he took them off today. Yay~~

My teeth feel really smooth and weird and it's been so long since I've seen them lol. I miss having my bracers to scratch the inside of my mouth for me though...but I'll survive.

My dentist made me write about my feelings today while I was waiting for my invisalign, and as usual, I had no clue as to how to form sentences. I ended up writing four sentences, which was pretty damn good in my opinion! My mom kept asking me if I was planning to finish it...

My invisalign isn't too bad. I'll need to get used to it though.

My next appointment is in April.. I'm going to miss seeing my dentist every month. Seriously. He always told me how I was his favourite patient and how nice I was and stuff like that that no one has ever told me ever.

Oh, and for taking off my bracers, here's what my dentist gave me-
...I was expecting a sticker
it's non alcoholic, of course

Waiting (｡-_-｡)

It's been a while! Last week I was home sick all week, so no school or lessons or dance for me. I was okay with the no school and no lessons part, but everything has a consequence, right? Anyways, I'm starting to feel a bit better, although this wretched cough WILL NOT GO AWAY!!! (｀_´)ゞ

I'm back to school this week, and it sucks as usual. I missed some work, but I'll get to that next week.

My sister is currently watching the new episode of The Vampire Diaries and she is deafening me T^T

I have taken cough medicine and it is making me sooo drowsy, but the new episode of Grey's Anatomy is on soon and I really don't want to miss it. =_=

Yesterday I had my Spanish orals, and they were as terrible as I thought. But that's history. I have a math test tomorrow, fun~ ヽ(￣д￣;)ノ

...I really need to sleep

No WiFi No LiFi

(I can do puns too teehee)

Just a short post to explain my mini absence from the Internet over the past two days or so. Basically the Internet bill was payed a few days late, and they haven't reconnected us yet. My mom doesn't really care, and neither does anyone else, but I am DYING here!! My sister gets through with stealing WiFi from my neighbours (yet I don't-- UNFAIR), so she's okay. Now my only source of Internet is my phone. And a- it is a bit slow; b- it is very unstable; c- my phone dies quickly because of this sudden abuse!! I need the Internet company to hurry up and connect me again.

And yes, I am aware of how sad this makes me sound, but I never said I was not a lazy introvert with an Internet addiction, now did I?

Now on the flip side, Versailles' final tour has started, and they will be releasing a "best of" album next year. Like the rest of the fandom, I feel that better choices could have been made as to the tracks of this cd, but I will always cherish anything they release (just call me a mindless Versailles zombie, I guess). I can guarantee there will be more on this later.

Oh! And my sister got her driver's licence yesterday, so keep me in your minds? haha

And finally (because the Internet hates me tonight), happy late Halloween!! Mine was extremely boring as I did nothing, but at least I looked good~

Unprofessional Hong Kong?

So today was pretty good- I did not have my drama practicals, I'm most likely getting the Versailles memorial pendent for Christmas/my birthday, and we got the keys to the new house as well. So all in all, today was pretty good.

But then I log onto twitter to see allkpop tweet that SHINee got booed in Hong Kong? My initial reaction was honestly,
"WHAT?! HOW DARE THEY BOO MY SHINee?!?! DO THEY NOT KNOW WHO THEY ARE? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THEM????" 

Now I admit that that did come from a biased mind, but we really can't help that, now can we? Anyways, a few minutes later I cooled down a bit, and checked tumblr (which is basically where I go for all of my information now). I've read the fan accounts, and I've seen the video, and I have reached the conclusion (as many other fans have) that this unfortunate turn of events was not SHINee's fault.

Obviously this was as a result of lack of communication and poor organizational skills. The translator should have been better prepared, or at least received a bit more training. That entire event appeared to be poorly organized (from what I saw from the fancam). So many problems could have been avoided if Etude House took more care into the organization of this event. If there's one thing that pisses me off the most it's a "professional" event that is completely disorganized.

However, I do think the HK reporters really did overreact. According to one of the explanations I read, the reporters who tried to take some pictures of SHINee felt as though they were roughly treated by the Korean staff the day before. Okay. I get that. But even if this was "rude and disrespectful" (which is not verified to my knowledge), there is nothing more rude or disrespectful than reporters, who are supposed to be professional and unbiased people, boo a band because of what their staff members did. No matter the circumstances. This kind of behaviour should never be accepted in the media world.

Plus the headlines I have been hearing about that state that SHINee "only cared about using their phones" and they "disregarded their fans", etc.- I WOULD LIKE TO SEE SOME PROOF, PLEASE. This is not just me being biased, I swear, but I have yet to see actual proof to support these statements. If anyone has some, do share. I'm not saying that these claims cannot possibly be true, I am simply saying I have not seen any proof of anything stated, ever. And spreading lies (especially about my favourite kpop band) is not going to get you very far up on my list.

Now please not that I am NOT blaming every citizen of Hong Kong for this mess. I have nothing against these people. It's just that these reporters are pissing me off and ruining my good-ish day!! Plus they probably did not even think about how this would affect SHINee themselves. They did nothing wrong. If you go watch the fancam all you will see is blank stares mixed with confusion. It's not their fault they do not understand the language. They were just going with what people told them. Now if you had booed the translator or the organizers of this event I would have been more understanding. But it would not have made you any less unprofessional.

But I must say, SHINee has once again shown us how professional they really are. And I really am proud of them. I could never be so calm about this situation if I was in their shoes.

And if you would like to see for yourself-



Also, not related to this at all, but How I Met Your Mother's new episode tonight was postponed due to Hurricane Sandy. First of all, how is the new episode affected? Just curious because I really don't know. And secondly, I hope everyone tries to stay safe during this terrible hurricane! My prayers go out to you.

&5678 how the hell am I so late??

Happy Kai's Birthday Day!!

Yesterday in dance we finished the group number for the show (well Harmony and I did- Kiana was sick and Mikayla had a concert thing going on). So all we have left to do is polish and perfect it. Today I learnt some more of my solo; I have roughly one more minute to learn until I'm finished. My dance teacher says I should be finished by next week. That means I'll have three weeks to perfect it until showtime. I can't believe December is so close already!! ._.

My teeth feel much better, and I can chew more or less everything now. So yay~ Speaking of chewing, I should go eat dinner soon.

President's was as good as it always is. Take that as you will... We got to play Catch & Rescue today though! It has been too long since I last played that game!! High school sucks >_> Next week we're having our meeting in a park. Outside. In public. Where everyone can see us. And we have to cook a three course meal out there. I can't wait. :|

I think my mom was in a bad mood this evening because she wanted to go to the beach (like she always does) and my sister and I didn't want to go because we have homework (like we always do). Plus I think she had a little to drink. Anyways, she was in a really bad mood and she just pissed me off. She almost ruined my entire night. Almost. Thank god for dance. She said my sister and I are really nasty children. Well thanks a lot, mom. My self esteem was abnormally high today. But everything's back to normal now. So thanks again.

But moving on. We finally have flyers for our show~

So now I'm excited again. We have about one month again!! My nerves should start to kick in in about two weeks. It has been so long since I've been on stage! ._. Here's to hoping I remember to actually perform out there. One thing I'm always excited for is the stage makeup, since I don't really wear much makeup in my everyday life. I am 1000000% serious when I say my plan B is to become a performer. I just can't help but love it!

I did not have dinner and I am currently starving. I really need to rethink some of my decisions these days...

Oh, and today's the day I realised my dance studio's name is "&5678 Dance Studio". I have seen that written on all the notices we get, but I don't know, it just never clicked in my head. So seven years later I finally know the official name for my dance studio. Where have I been? lol

But in all seriousness now... Today I finally had time to listen to Alexander Rybak's new song, "Leave Me Alone". The music video is wonderful, I especially love the bits of dancing in it. The violin is mesmerising as always. And the song itself has a really nice beat. Like everyone else though, I am quite concerned about the lyrics. I have heard he really was/is being stalked like the lyrics explains, and I just have to say how fucking disgusted I am by whoever is doing it. If I was Alexander I would have called the police for her ass a long time ago. That girl is extremely lucky he's nice enough to only write a song about it. And a fucking amazing song at that. This girl is very lucky I can't get my hands on her, even if there isn't much I could have done either way. But on a nicer note, how convenient that this all came about around Halloween so he could have an awesomely spooky video to spread the spirit. It's things like this that always make me skeptical. Well I can only hope that if this girl is still around that she gets the message and gets a life. I'll keep my fingers crossed.

$400 for a death sentence

Yesterday morning I had to go to the dentist. I don't really mind going or anything, it's just that I have had my bracers for a little over two years now, and I am really fed up. Every time I have gone since June this year, they keep telling me my bracers will come off in my next appointment. Well it still hasn't happened yet!! I don't really mind the bracers or anything, but they keep getting my hopes up for nothing!!!

My appointment yesterday was conveniently placed at the same time as my double of music, though. I'll just have to do my presentation on Baroque music next week then. Oh well...

The rest of the day was pretty normal. I got out of going for math lessons because I was starving and my teeth were hurting really badly. Mashed potatoes really does not fill me at all. I need to chew! I still can't chew properly right now, besides at the back of the right side of my mouth. It is not as comfortable as it sounds.

Today was also pretty good. My French course work could have gone better, but at least I did good in Social Studies. There was a disco at lunch but I really was not in the mood to see 13 year olds flex on each other.

President's was better than expected. The people from the army could not come again today (I think they're avoiding us lol), so our leaders were telling us what we should pack in our ruck sacks. I think our first hike is in November. On Saturday we have to carry two jalitres of water to hold on our backs again. And then I have to go practice a dance that involves a lot of hand movement. How fun.

In President's one of our leaders was also telling us how there are people in the bush that they cannot control, and how we should deal with them if the situation arises. They made it really creepy by saying that "there may be some lonely people out there". Now tell me that does not remind you of a Lifetime movie. A small part of me wants to reconsider this.

My sister upset me, but what's new? She honestly thinks I would tell my entire class her business, which is one of the most hurtful things she has said to me (and she has said a lot of hurtful things). But whatever. Maybe now she'll stop telling me all of this useless information (and steal another one of my friends to tell it to instead). Either way I promised myself that I would not let her get to me, and boy am I trying.

I am really hungry right now. I tried to chew something during my dinner, but that did not end well. I think my mouth will feel better by tomorrow though. Plus tomorrow is Friday which means I have dance, so I will survive. I am completely serious when I say dance is the only thing I look forward to during the week. I am aware that this sounds a bit sad.

Oh, and Grey's Anatomy was pretty good. One of the better episodes of the season. In my opinion. Although I have been rather indifferent about it since it started back. I think my feelings are really broken this time...

this "personal blogging" thing doesn't seem as hard as I thought

Hi, Darling~

So apparently I had an account here before (it was totally forgotten about and then removed lol).... So I decided to start fresh with a new account. I will try to post regularly, but if you get to know me you'll realise I suck at things like this. I promise not to forget about it again, though! I'm always open to talking to people. Basically I'm a socially awkward Jrock/Kpop fan who also watches How I Met Your Mother and Grey's Anatomy religiously. Oh, and I like to dance a bit.

I'm still getting the hang of this website, but I'll get there. I was never that good at keeping a journal, but considering I spend so much time online I think this should be much easier. My tumblr also contains some personal posts, but recently they have become very censored. I hope that will not happen here.

I'm on tumblr- here
And twitter- here

So um....hi. ^^

(this doesn't really have anything to do with...well, anything, but my iPod is on shuffle and it just played Regret by Malice Mizer, and then it played the live version of it! I love it when things like that happen!!)